Spring Cleaning!

this is how it all starts out...

I love the thought of New Years Resolutions, and that tends to be an overarching issue for why I rarely accomplish such annual goals. Their 'thoughts,' that rarely mature into plans that eventually blossom into actions. And what is more apparent is that this yearly ritual is faced with yearly disappointment. During each countdown, my focus lies on a specific tasks such as 'maintain a vegetarian diet' or 'design my own outfits' - all the while overshadowing my root problems of commitment.


With a full schedule, limited budget and little experience preparing meals for myself- these resolutions are essentially setting up a bank account with nothing to deposit but each month your charged a service fee. That service fee comes in the form of guilt and disappointment. For example, I have little sewing experience but I do have a talented fashion designer for a mother- you would think I would take advantage of her expertise. However, since I find myself all over the city at any given day I rarely make the time to learn and practice the craft.
Not to mention, I could go forever without eating meat (although seafood is a heavy temptation). Although...I don't have spare income for personal groceries nor do I have a knack for culinary skills beyond Cesar salad. Thus, in self-reflecting over how I approach my yearly resolution I can clearly see that I don't make time for change...which couldn't be more alarming.

that pretty little smiles makes it all the more twisted

Those who know me know that I love for the performing arts and youth programming. And I myself am truly content working in these fields (simultaneously), so much so that it is a dream of mine to open up a community centre that provides youth with professional arts programming. And unlike past defaults I cannot afford to let this dream defer.
So what's my plan? In technical terms I would like to call my present undertaking a: passion accreditation. I am taking the responsibility to thoroughly overview each realm of my life that does/does not take space in comparison to what I consider to be comfortable living. I will divide the realms ordered by needed attention:

• work
• family
• health
• social
  

What has really prompted this 'passion accreditation' is the flooding signs and mentoring from friends and family that all point to living in the present moment instead of past or future goals. I'm no dud, as I am very blessed and have accomplished great achievements. Only now I have the opportunity to enjoy more of what this life has to offer by acting on all that I have in front of me.
I am posting this personal process as a way to share and learn with others who can relate on any medium. And I need to hold myself accountable and do regular check-ins as I know this will be a helpful tool for me to remain consistent in my commitment to positive change.

So I've got some hard work in front of my to reroute some of my die hard habits- time for some Spring Cleaning!